Family Tradition

My husband is having gastric bypass surgery on Nov 1, 2006. I am sure he will lose the weight much quicker than I did, but that's just how it goes. Guys lose the weight faster, it's not fair, but that's life. I am so excited for my husband.

16 Month Check Up

To date I am down to 195 lbs. So I have lost a grand total of 139 lbs. I have lost 20 inches on my waist. I can't remember the rest, sorry. I feel great and I still haven't had any major complications. I am now hypoglycemic but that's because I love carbs too much. But other than that I am great. I am still not at my goal weight but who cares? I look better now that I did so that's all that matters plus I feel great!

Vanity

I was able to buy jeans at Vanity! I was able to buy size 34 inch waist jeans! I am super stoked! In high school I always wanted to buy jeans at some place other than Lane Bryant but couldn't.

Inches

My Mom took my measurements on Saturday and total for the year I have lost 57 inches.

One Year

Friday was my one year mark. A lot has changed. I now have more energy than ever before, I can actually do physical activities and not get winded. I can shop pretty much where ever I want and that' s big plus. I can fit in any booth or seat anywhere I go.

To date I have lost 131 pounds. I haven't take my inches yet so I am not sure how many inches I have lost total but I will do that today and update here. I am down to 203 pounds. I am not where I wanted to be. I wanted to be down to my goal weight by this time, but that just didn't happen. It's my own fault though. I will admit that I sometimes do not eat the right foods and I slack off on the exercising a lot. But I never regret having the surgery. I think it was the best thing ever for me. I know I wouldn't have lost 131 pounds any other way.

YES!

So I am finally out of my funk. It was so nice to have all of you be so supportive. I don't know what my problem was, but I am all over it now. I am not as skinny as I had hoped but I still look 10 times better than I did a year ago so it's all good.

Depression

You know it's weird, when I was heavy I never realized how freakin' huge I was, but now that I am losing weight I am so aware of my size. You would think with me losing 128 pounds I would feel better about myself, but I don't really. For a while there I was trying to blame my unhappiness on my marriage, but it's not Mike's fault at all, it's all mine. Something is seriously wrong with me. I want to lose all this weight but I won't get my fat butt off of the couch and do some exercise. I really need to though, and I know that, I just can't get motivated. I think that's why I have been so depressed lately. Next month I will be a year out. At a year out I thought I would be at my goal weight, but not so much. I am hoping to lose at least 50 more pounds but that's going to be the toughest 50 pounds to get off. I am going to have to exercise and eat right and that sucks! I think me getting skinner is causing me to get depressed. It's like when I was heavy people didn't expect anything from me and they all thought I was a total loser, now they expect more from me. In turn, I am starting to expect more from me. This is all so odd for me. I have never before in my life been depressed so it's a weird feeling for me and I am not quite sure how to shake it. I am hoping I can work through it, but if not I may need to see counseling. I am not super depressed like the people who think about killing themselves or anything, but I am a little down. sorry I had to get it off of my chest.