Happiness

I have lost 115 lbs and I am still not happy. Some of my friends have called me ungrateful,but I don't think so. While 115 lbs. is good,I want to lose more. I want to lose about 75 more pounds. I don't think that's unreasonable. I have had some friends tell me I will never be happy and that I have become vain. I am not vain, I just finally realized how fat I was before surgery and I want to look the best that I can. Is that a crime? Apparently to some it is. I feel if I was willing to get cut open to lose weight then I should lose as much weight as possible.

I have not lost a pound since I started drinking beer every Thursday night, so tonight is my last night to drink. I am trying to go down two dress sizes by Dec. 2nd. That's when our office holiday party is and I want to look stunning. So my goal is to be size 16 or 14. Right now I am an 18/20. I think I can do it if I stop drinking and exercise more. So today starts the countdown. Right now I am at 223 because I gained 5 pounds from all my drinking. So wish me luck!

Weigh In

My friend Megan I just went and weighed ourselves and I still haven't lost anything. So I am stuck right at 219. I don't think I will ever lose the weight.

Suck It In

I bought my first girdle last night. The doctors say it helps to make the skin hold it's shape and be less flabby. I must say it's not as bad as I thought it would be. I think I will be wearing one from now on. I am hoping it will help make my belly look better. I am sagging in weird places. Like on my upper thighs. It's forming balls of excess skin, it's not pretty. Other than that my only other really saggy place is my arms, but I will get over it.