You're the Fat Girl Yo!

It amazes me how fucking stupid people are. Last night I was at my belly dancing class when the instructor said "Well you will look really good once you hit your goal weight." Okay bitch what if I was already at my goal weight? I mean people just don't think before they speak sometimes. It's so annoying. I mean I don't really care because I know I am fat and I don't take it seriously,but I know that some over weight people do. It just gets on my nerves.

As for belly dancing, this weeks class went much better. It was just Bobbi and me this week. Last week it was Shawna,Megan,Bobbi,and me;but Shawna and Megan didn't feel like going this week. They were disappointed with last weeks class as was myself. But this week was much more fun. Bobbi brought up to the instructor that we would like to do some crunches, stretches,and stuff like that. So we got to do that this week and actually got some what of a work out. Plus we are learning a slow routine and it's becoming fun now that's it is all coming together. So I am sure things will just keep getting better.

6 months

I went for my six month check up on August 18th. So far I have lost 111 pounds. I am doing okay I guess. I just always think I need to be losing more, but the doctors assure me I am doing great. Today I was able to eat a happy meal from McDonald's. I mean I couldn't eat the top part of the bun or all of the fries but still...that is awesome! That's the most I have eaten so far.

Saturday I finally had full blown 'dumping syndrome'. It was horrible. I never thought it would be that bad. I had four bites of a muffin from Mimi's Cafe and about a hour later I started feeling horrible. I had terrible chest pains. I tried to suffer through it for about twenty mins, but then the chest pain spread to my back and jaw so I freaked out thinking I was having a heart attack so my Mom rushed me to the ER where they did an EKG and chest x-ray and blood work and said I was having dumping syndrome. It sucked. I will NEVER again in my life eat a muffin. Trust me!

I also started belly dancing on Tuesday to hopefully help me tone up my fat that has become flabby. I use to be solid fat and now it's getting flabby and gross looking but that means it's breaking down and that's what I need.